Monday, April 20, 2015

Tea & Chats ♥

 Sit down for some tea and chats with me won't you? If you know me though you'll know I despise hot drinks, so a glass of sparkling water for me it is! I feel like I want to chat with my readers, not just talk at you all (as I feel like I mostly do with explaining stuff), so I think some tea and chats (and the obligatory slice of cake) is in order. I may begin to ramble on so bear with me... That's the best thing about chats though isn't it, just jumping from topic to topic without a care in the world. Tea and chats can solve the worlds problems you know, it's true!

We all need a breather from time to time and I'm no exception. There are days when I worry about not having anything to post or haven't been inspired by anything I want to share with the world and I panic - so bloody stupid, but I find myself lying awake at night worrying about this blog! So silly to be worrying about something in cyberspace instead of things actually going on in my reality isn't it? I could lie there for minutes at a time coming up with blog posts (which all sound great to me of course!) but I'm too lazy to get out of bed and then forget what I was even on about in the morning, typical really. Does anyone else do this? It drives me bananas! I just feel like I really need to care about this blog, probably a lot more than I should, but it's like my second baby and my perfectionist self won't let it fall to the wayside or just give a half-arsed effort.

 From all this bedtime thinking and not being able to switch off - I blame the amount of screen time I get during the day - I've had to try and find some ways to get to sleep naturally. I began using Lush's (yes me and my Lush obsession again!) Full of Grace serum bar as it's full of essential oils and it's really worked. I'll have to review it soon but it really has been a life saver for me, especially as my little one has been waking up during the night lately and has been finding it hard to get to sleep himself.

My little one has been so unwell lately, I honestly can't tell you the amount of dirty nappies I've changed in the last three days. When I took him out to my mothers garden yesterday I even had to change him on the grass - if my mam didn't think I was a hippy mother before she certainly thinks so now! Honestly though, I hate seeing him so sick and me not being able to do anything about it. It's funny but sometimes I think - "How am I a parent, who left me responsible for another human being?!" I'm so easy-going it's unreal, I give into all the child's demands and it doesn't even bother me. He has me wrapped around his little finger and he bloody well knows it too. I just can't stay mad at him for more than two minutes, I guess I just feel incredibly lucky to have him and I honestly would like to be friends with him as he grows, not his big, bad mother who he won't tell anything to. See, I'm way too soft!

I'm in serious need of a good ole catch-up with the girls too. My friend circle has changed a lot in the past few months and it's saddened me a lot to lose people as friends. I just got the impression that a certain someone who I adored and thought was a friend for life didn't want to be friends with me anymore and I just let the friendship go. I must have been right because they didn't get in touch but it honestly makes me so sad. I think about them from time to time and wonder if I should get in touch but I think too much time has passed, it's really sad when this happens isn't it? There are other times when I think that all I need are Jacek and Tyler Lee but I'm wrong, sometimes I need to be Fiona and just Fiona, not mammy, fiance, that lady who's always around, just take some time out and breathe for myself and just let go and have fun without my responsibilities. Does that sound selfish? I bet it sounds selfish but it really doesn't mean to be.

When I think of my life now and all the stress I have at the moment I do wonder what happened? How can situations change so much overtime and how can two people who once loved each other and put on a united front grow to hate each other so much. I am incredibly thankful to have a man like Jacek in my life, seriously I fell on my feet with him, he's a domestic God and everything else perfect that I can't put into the right words but all these situations make me feel like we'd be better off never getting married, just to make it easier if we ever wanted to go our separate ways. That's absolutely awful isn't it? Pessimistic me strikes again... I'd never want to grow to hate him though, I don't think I have it in me as I'm still on speaking terms and quite friendly with my ex's to tell the truth. I'm a lover not a hater and I hope I stay that way for life.

Thanks for the tea (*cough* sparkling water *cough*) and chats and for listening to my rambling self. I like sharing what's going on behind the screen, I don't tend to share the mundane, everyday life scenarios I have or all the crappy stuff - with a blog tagline such as 'lose yourself in all things beautiful' it just doesn't seem appropriate. Sometimes though it's just so refreshing just to get everything off my chest and just write what I'm feeling instead of trying to come up with something entertaining, beautiful, etc.

 Do pop by again soon, my door is always open... not really, it's always locked but lets just pretend as it's a nice way to end! (That rhyme was not intentional, I'm not that cheesy, promise!).
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29 comments

  1. I love a good ramble, really frees up your head to get it all out there, I know how you feel about worrying about the blog, it can really take over all your thoughts sometimes. I hope your little man starts to feel better soon. It's hard when you lose some friends but that's growing up I guess, friendships change so grow and some end. You look after yourself now, take time for you xx

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  2. Lovely post Fiona. I really enjoyed reading it.
    Dx

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  3. That was a lovely chat, thanks! 😀

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  4. Ah you need a post like that sometimes.
    And by the way, you are not the only one laying on bed thinking of a blog post and forget about it in the morning. Sometimes I'm even too lazy to write it down in my phone.
    Regarding being yourself. you totally need that. I love having such a supportive fiance that I got a lot of time to myself. I'm grateful for that otherwise I don't think I would cope.
    Thanks for the tea. :)

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  5. I always think the best conversations result over tea! What a lovely post!

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  6. I am so with you! ME TIME is super uber important. I need to be just Kathleen too! Planning time with just your friends to catch up or just your hubby is key. This past weekend, my hubs and I went into New York City to catch a play and stay overnight at a hotel-for some alone couple time. When you set time aside for yourself--you will be much happier and so will everyone around you--it is worth the effort for sure--great post! thanks for the reminder

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  7. It's nice to catch up with you in this way, Fiona! I find it refreshing when a blogger can set aside the 'business mode' of blogging and can just chat with her readers. I really do hope you can find some time to give yourself a day off of sorts from being, mother, lover, blogger and housekeeper and just have some time to yourself. It's the best medicine.

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  8. Thank you so much for the tea and chat though I know you've defo not had tea! ;) Had to break up my comment as this won't allow me to type more for some reason! Love you lady! xx

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  9. I hope Tyler Lee's tummy settles down soon and he feels better. I have found that friendships do change over time too as your commonalities and life circumstances change. Sorry you're missing someone special to you though.

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  10. It's really hard to be a hater as it's a burden to carry. It's nice the you have to ramble some thoughts here and I know how that unloads some of the cluttered thoughts in your mind.

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  11. I am the same way I can’t stand hot drinks; I am more a diet coke girl! It is funny how much thinking about our blogs can you up at night? I think it’s important to take time to refocus on yourself and then the blog flows a bit better.

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  12. I'll drink the tea! I know what you mean about friendships and time to be you - I have none! I'm just Momma. I don't grumble on my blog either - but I enjoyed reading this ramble so much!

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  13. How quaint, I would love to chat to someone special in that kind of setting. So pretty and special!

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  14. No hot drinks? Whaaaaa I love my hot drinks. I love my hot house too. I am so bad I don't even turn on the air during the summer we live in the woods and get a nice breeze and I have fans. Friends come and go I am learning this as I get older. The ones that are meant to be in your life will be there.

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  15. I love tea and catching up with my girlfriends is something that I really enjoy as well. By the way, I am so fascinated with the fact that you're in Ireland! Let me know when you're ready for a visitor. Lol (o;

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  16. Wow that is really cute tea cup, my daughter have a cups for her tea play, she really would love this tea cup polka dots.

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  17. I'm the same way with sleeping, I often can't turn it off at night and I think it's the amount of screen time that does it to me. I'm also with you on need a night to hand out with my girls...I don't get them often enough. I'm sorry to hear your baby is sick..that must be hard.

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  18. I enjoyed reading about what's going on at the moment in your life. It know from experience it sucks losing friends. I'm so sorry that you're little boy is not feeling to well these days. O gosh and I hate hot tea also. I normally make tea, add some lemon, throw it in my glass tumbler and throw some ice in it. i just can't drink it hot lol ♥

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  19. What a great post :) It's always fun learning about someone else! The little cakes looked so yummy!! :)

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  20. A good old ramble now and again is good for the soul Fiona, I do not think you're selfish for wanting to be just Fiona not mummy or fiance etc once in a while you just need some me time. I do not have kids yet but I do give into my nephew, he probably just has to sneeze and I would give him whatever. This is a really nice post.

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  21. This is an awesome post indeed and I believe it is so important for us to get everything off our chest at times. What you feel is not selfish at all and everyone has wished we didn't have all the responsibilities we have in our life. Me time is to release so of the pressures of our responsibilities. Thanks for sharing.

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  22. Firstly, I love the tea set and the pictures are so pretty! I often catch up with the girls...I don't know what I would do without them! We make it a point to get together once a month for dinner to catch up!

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  23. I lost a few friendships last year. It was hard finding out they weren't really my friends but it makes me appreciate my true friends much more so.

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  24. Whether it's over a hot drink or water, I love a good chat. Sometimes you have to get it all off your chest.

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  25. I love the tea setup. And NO its NOT selfish to want some time for yourself! It's necessary for our sanity. :)

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  26. Your pictures are gorgeous and I loved the post. Seriously, writing can be sooo therapeutic.

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  27. I think all women need a good ol' fashion coffee clutchin' with the girls once in a while just to let it all go! If you invited me I definitely would've come. We have our coffee clutches too, but we also bring out our crocheting or books or whatever. We talk about everything and anything no restrictions. Maybe you need to join a club like that or start one.

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  28. I always love reading your blog! I'm a totally lush for Lush Cosmetics as well and I'll definitely have to try out the Full of Grace Serum, it sounds life changing! I also have changed my circle of friends recently and while it can feel a bit rough at first, it's ultimately such a relief to only have GOOD people in your life. Just keep swimming, girl, you are doing awesome! :)

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  29. For tough situation like this, what I do is kneel and whisper a prayer. It works for me.

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Fiona
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