We all need a breather from time to time and I'm no exception. There are days when I worry about not having anything to post or haven't been inspired by anything I want to share with the world and I panic - so bloody stupid, but I find myself lying awake at night worrying about this blog! So silly to be worrying about something in cyberspace instead of things actually going on in my reality isn't it? I could lie there for minutes at a time coming up with blog posts (which all sound great to me of course!) but I'm too lazy to get out of bed and then forget what I was even on about in the morning, typical really. Does anyone else do this? It drives me bananas! I just feel like I really need to care about this blog, probably a lot more than I should, but it's like my second baby and my perfectionist self won't let it fall to the wayside or just give a half-arsed effort.
From all this bedtime thinking and not being able to switch off - I blame the amount of screen time I get during the day - I've had to try and find some ways to get to sleep naturally. I began using Lush's (yes me and my Lush obsession again!) Full of Grace serum bar as it's full of essential oils and it's really worked. I'll have to review it soon but it really has been a life saver for me, especially as my little one has been waking up during the night lately and has been finding it hard to get to sleep himself.
I'm in serious need of a good ole catch-up with the girls too. My friend circle has changed a lot in the past few months and it's saddened me a lot to lose people as friends. I just got the impression that a certain someone who I adored and thought was a friend for life didn't want to be friends with me anymore and I just let the friendship go. I must have been right because they didn't get in touch but it honestly makes me so sad. I think about them from time to time and wonder if I should get in touch but I think too much time has passed, it's really sad when this happens isn't it? There are other times when I think that all I need are Jacek and Tyler Lee but I'm wrong, sometimes I need to be Fiona and just Fiona, not mammy, fiance, that lady who's always around, just take some time out and breathe for myself and just let go and have fun without my responsibilities. Does that sound selfish? I bet it sounds selfish but it really doesn't mean to be.
Thanks for the tea (*cough* sparkling water *cough*) and chats and for listening to my rambling self. I like sharing what's going on behind the screen, I don't tend to share the mundane, everyday life scenarios I have or all the crappy stuff - with a blog tagline such as 'lose yourself in all things beautiful' it just doesn't seem appropriate. Sometimes though it's just so refreshing just to get everything off my chest and just write what I'm feeling instead of trying to come up with something entertaining, beautiful, etc.
Do pop by again soon, my door is always open... not really, it's always locked but lets just pretend as it's a nice way to end! (That rhyme was not intentional, I'm not that cheesy, promise!).