Monday, September 28, 2015

Feeling Stuck... But Also Postive Changes ♥

These past few weeks have been hard for me, not only have I been feeling very unwell but I've also lost my mojo for blogging. Now don't get me wrong, I haven't lost my passion for blogging at all, writing and photography are two things which I enjoy immensely in life, but at the moment I just feel stuck, stuck in this rut of not knowing where to begin with writing a post or having no inspiration to pick up my camera. It's been so frustrating for me as I have some things which I really want to review and share with you all and I've also been wanting to get out and capture the essence of autumn on camera... but instead I'm just stuck, I just don't have the energy at the moment.

Perhaps I burnt myself out with my desire to reach one million page views. I worked so hard to reach that huge milestone and I sometimes think that was the cause of my feeling like this. I was so caught up with reaching a daily stat goal, getting my posts promoted and was spending so much time on the internet that I feel like I missed out on 'real life'.

There have been some amazing blessings to becoming stuck with this little blog of mine, the most important and special being that my son and I are as close as ever. He no longer witnesses his mother staring at a screen for hours on end and I think he's rewarding me by inundating me with cuddles, kisses and falling asleep on my lap on more than one occasion. I've also been able to enjoy other pastimes in my life instead of feeling like I have to sit and work on the blog all day. I've almost finished another Lorna Byrne book 'Stairways to Heaven', one I had begun and neglected because I was working so hard to reach one million page views... I've made the time to chill out, enjoy a bath and just switch off from social media - the latter is probably the most important thing I could have done for myself.

I now find myself having no desire to turn on the laptop, I can go days at a time without wanting to turn it on and to be honest, feeling this way is so refreshing, I no longer feel like a slave to the internet. In fact, if I'm completely honest social media makes me feel quite sad because it is, in reality, not a bit social at all. I've spent the last few years of my life focused on pastimes which centered on 'virtual people', people I had never met but who somehow had a huge influence on my life, well I'm happy to say that I no longer care about the opinions of people I've never met - unless I consider them a close friend of course, and believe me that's rare because I don't trust or make friends with people too easily.

Sometimes we need to become stuck to reflect a bit and realise that we're immersing ourselves too much in something, that we're neglecting things in our lives and that we need to make some positive changes. Becoming stuck with this little blog of mine has really been a blessing in disguise and it has made me reevaluate what I want to do with this blog.

The mind really does work in mysterious ways, don't you agree?

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