Wanting Another Baby... ♥

I would love another little baby in our lives so much, it seems like such an age ago when my son was just this small.

I've recently decided that I would like another baby, another precious child to add to our family, to love, nurture to cherish and a sibling for Tyler Lee to grow up with and love too. I've spoken on the blog before on when is the right time to have a second baby, but this was way back in November 2013 and at that stage I had a little ten month old to contend with and firmly believed that it was not the right time to add to our family, I was completely right and it seemed that fate believed so too when, just three months later I sadly miscarried our second child. Now that our son is well past the age of two, having another baby is something that Jacek and I have been speaking about frequently... well, something I talk at him about really.

When it comes to our relationship he is, and always has been the voice of reason. He goes with what his head says, whereas I always follow my heart and usually this balance works great for us, only on the issue of wanting another baby I am the only left feeling saddened and defeated by the fact he always says - "now is not the time". When I fell pregnant with Tyler Lee I was adamant that I did not want a huge age gap between my children, favouring a smaller age gap between them because in all honesty I think they would be closer if this was the case. Two and a half years would have been my ideal gap, but that window of opportunity is long gone now that our son is going to be two and half in less than three months and I am most definitely not close to giving birth, I'm not even pregnant. Tyler Lee will now be over the age of three before he becomes a big brother and that's not what I wanted and I'm sorry to say that this fact bothers me, a lot. I know it shouldn't as I have one beautiful, healthy child already and am blessed but I wanted him to be close to his sibling(s) and as someone who has only one brother who is four years younger than her I know what it's like not to be close to your sibling at all.

So why do I feel like it's the right time to begin trying for another baby and to add another little person to our family? Well, Jacek is now finished college and will graduate from his law degree in November, this takes a lot of pressure off us as a family in terms of finances and getting to spend quality time together. Hopefully he will get a job in a law firm soon and have a job that is just Monday to Friday, giving us more of a routine in terms of family time. I feel like we're more financially stable at the moment (fingers crossed this continues!) and that we have the means to support another family member. I think that Tyler Lee would benefit from a sibling, he is such a sociable child and I feel like he always looks lost from having no one to play with, he would have made a great twin! Now that Tyler Lee is in playschool three times a week I feel as though I have the time to devote to another child, while still making sure that our son gets all the attention he needs day to day. Tyler Lee is also very independent now, I would ideally like him potty trained before he has a sibling and I think before he's three this will be done. 

Also, I think the fact that I now smile at babies when I'm out and about just confirms my broodiness as this most definitely wasn't something I did before! Does anyone else do this? I feel like such an old woman when I do!

I'm not going to push the issue with Jacek but it would be lovely if he turned around to me someday soon and said he's like to try for another baby too. I really do think it'd be lovely to have another child as part of our family and to see our children grow up together. Yes, being a parent is tough, it's probably the toughest role I have ever taken on in my life but it has also been the most rewarding. I know it's silly but I also worry that due to the previous miscarriage we may have trouble conceiving and if we do that it may happen all over again. I just feel like time is running out and it's crazy to feel this way when I am still still quite young.

When did you have your second child? Is there much of a gap between your children?