Thursday, June 15, 2017

Nowhere To Call Home ♥

We've only just arrived back from holiday and although I totally expected the post-holiday blues to hit me like a ton of bricks, what I didn't expect was the news that we could potentially be homeless in a couple of months.

You see we're one of those unfortunate young families who are stuck in the rental market, in doubt to whether or not we'll ever own our own home - and not because we can't afford it either, but because the banks are reluctant to give our mortgages since the recession.

Is it so wrong to just want to set down roots for yourself and your children? To have a place to properly call home and make your own?

When the landlord rang to tell us he was selling the house I didn't expect to feel so sad, worried and panicked. It's not as if I ever liked the house to begin with. It was supposed to just be a one year thing and then we were going to move on and find somewhere bigger and better, but since we moved here in 2013 the rental market has changed considerably, meaning there's almost nowhere suitable to rent in our area and if there is the prices are extortionate.

I can't even begin to tell you how angry and frustrated it it makes me to know that we can 100% afford to buy our own house with the help of a mortgage, but more than likely will not be offered one because of some stupid stipulation or another.

We're planning to speak to a financial advisor - hopefully next week, so right now I'm trying to live in hope that he'll have some good news for us and a plan for the future. Until then, we're having to look for a new property to live in whilst packing up (and throwing out) the last five years of our life.

I'm not a fan of this house, but I'm highly sentimental and the fact that we brought both of our babies home to this house and all the memories we've had here makes me want to cry. We've tried our best to make this our home - despite it being filled with all of the landlords furniture, which I hate and now it will be home no longer. We have nowhere to call home anymore.

Stupidly I keep thinking about Tyler's playhouse in the garden, the one he only just got this past Christmas and which he loves. It'll now have to be taken down and stored away if we can't find anywhere with a garden - right now there are only two bedroom apartments on the market. It's funny how out of everything, all I can think about is that playhouse. Such an insignificant thing yet so important to me for some strange reason... I guess I just want the boys to have happy childhoods, playing with one another in the garden and being able to have a place to call their own. Right now that playhouse is symbolising all of this for me.

I don't know what we're going to do if we can't find somewhere. We could potentially be homeless in a couple of months and understandably it's a real worry for us. Now we're faced with the prospect of searching for somewhere new, packing up all of our things into boxes, whilst having potential buyers roaming through the house even though we're still living here - an absolute nightmare for someone like myself who suffers from anxiety.

I thought we'd have a lovely summer ahead of us, with the boys playing in the garden on sunny days, going on day trips to places we've been wanting to see for years and spontaneous trips to the beach. Now it'll just be filled with worry, chaos and hassle, all of which I am so unprepared for.

Maybe this will be the beginning of a new adventure for us as a family, maybe it'll be the start of a complete and utter nightmare... only time will tell. My fingers are firmly crossed for the prospect of an adventure.
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  1. It's understandable that you are so worried & upset I would be too. It's so unfair that young families can't even get a toe on the property ladder nowadays. I know it's hard to stay positive but at least wherever you go you will all still have each other. If you have to take an apartment without a garden think of it as a challenge to get out with the boys everyday to the park. I hope you find somewhere soon x

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