Friday, May 13, 2016

Waiting... ♥

It's the day after my due date with baby number two... I am now officially waiting, overdue and waiting. I'm sitting here catching up with some blog work whilst Tyler Lee is at preschool and it's suddenly hit me that these quiet mornings of mine, where I get to catch up on things and have a bit of 'me time' will soon be a thing of the past... for the next two to three years at least. I feel as though I've been waiting for this baby for the longest time. I found out that I was pregnant on September 4th 2015 and it is now May 11th 2016... it seems incredible that I've known about this little baby for so long now, yet it still hasn't fully dawned on me that I'm going to have another child in my arms in a few days - I don't think the reality will really hit me until he or she is actually here.

I'm anxiously awaiting the onset of labour, every cramp or ache makes me feel as though it could be the beginning of something but nothing is progressing... I'd lie if I said I wasn't getting a bit fed up, I just want to meet my baby now and start the next chapter of our lives. Right now I feel like I'm a little bit in limbo and that I can't move forward with anything until baby is here with me. My parents keep ringing me asking me if "anything is happening?", sadly I have to keep saying no. I'm convinced that I'm going to be waiting it out until my hospital appointment next Wednesday where they'll induce me, baby is still kicking away so high up it seems impossible that he or she will move down on their own.

I feel as though I should be enjoying these last few quiet days, before the chaos and loveliness that a newborn baby brings descends on our lives... but I'm willing for this pregnancy to end now. I've said it before and I'll say it again - pregnancy does not agree with me, it's as if my body isn't made for it and I don't even know if I ever want to experience it again. I always wanted three children but the thought of another pregnancy is a big turn off - Jacek says he'll be reminding me of all my complaining in a few years when I say that I'd love another little babe!

I feel as though I should be doing more, that I should be a lot more prepared than I am. Mine and the baby's hospital bags are almost packed - I keep telling myself that if we need anything else the shopping center is just across the road from the hospital and I can send Jacek over for anything we've forgotten... very relaxed approach to our baby's arrival I know! I'm still terrified of labour - 31 hours of pain with my baby in the wrong position last time hasn't left me feeling prepared this time around, hopefully things will be quicker and smoother this time. I want to be in hospital for a minimal amount of time too but I keep worrying about needing a blood transfusion again due to a suspected blood disorder I may have - the unexplained bruises I keep getting aren't filling me with positivity that I'll escape from needing another transfusion, but I'll live in hope.

I just want to know what my baby looks like now, I'm constantly wondering if they'll look like Tyler Lee. I've had dreams about a baby with very long, blonde eyelashes and light complexion, I wonder if I'm right? A boys name is picked, chosen by Tyler Lee and we can't bring ourselves to change it now, it seems perfect to us, if baby is a girl she won't have a name ready, I have some beautiful names floating around my mind but we'll find the perfect one soon enough I'm sure.

We all want to meet you baby, everything is ready and waiting for you now. Please grace us with your presence soon, we can't wait to begin the next adventure in our lives with you in our arms. As a family we'll be so complete...  ♥


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17 comments

  1. How exciting! Best wishes for the delivery and looking forward to the announcement :)

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  2. AH Fi I`m so excited for you!!!! I cant wait to see baby and find out his or her name!!! :) I hope he/she arrives soon for you lovely! xx

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  3. Oh sweetie. I really, really feel for you. I was two WEEKS over with my first and I often say they were the worst two weeks of the entire pregnancy! I promise it WILL end.

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  4. Ah am so excited for u. I can't wait to see ur posts on ur new bundle of joy and find out his or her name. I hope the Labour runs smoothly for u and fingers crossed for noblood transfusion.

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  5. I am so thankful I never went overdue, I was impatient from week 36 LOL - little one will be here soon enough x

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  6. Hope Baby makes an arrival soon. Best wishes for the birth x

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  7. Good luck!! Hopefully baby comes soon!! xx

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  8. So exciting isn't it? Good luck with everything.

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  9. If you dont blog again before the baby comes, I am wishing you all the luck in the world x

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  10. Ooh I'm hoping the baby is here now 😃 Lucas kept me waiting 2 weeks x

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    1. Nope, sadly still not here... 40+2 weeks and counting... x

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  11. So close now! I also had pre-birth dreams about meeting the baby. So odd! I'm looking forward to hearing some good news very soon .

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  12. Oh no, I am hoping that by the time I write this comment bubba will be on the way. Keeping my fingers crossed xx

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  13. Hope baby comes soon. Your nursery is beautiful. Love peter rabbit x

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  14. I really hope baby arrives soon. I know it's hard when you are waiting but make the most of this quiet time and get some rest.

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  15. Congrats on your second little one! I hope he or she arrives soon (if they haven't already!)

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