Sunday, October 25, 2015
As Long As I'm Living, My Baby He'll Be... ♥
It all boiled down to his speech, or lack there of... until two weeks ago when he suddenly began repeating everything I said, singing songs and learning everybody's name. I had people tell me that him speaking in his own language was something to be concerned about, and suddenly, something which I had always found endearing and a trait of my little boy's, had turned into something which worried me, something which made me want to take him to the public health nurse to inquire about speech therapy. Oh how glad I am that I listened to my gut and didn't take him.
Yes it has taken Tyler Lee longer than most children to master the ability to talk. He's still not fluent but he tries very hard and for that I'm as proud of him as possibly can be. I feel so stupid and actually quite ashamed of myself that I let complete strangers make me question my boy - it just goes to show that mummy always knows best... I'm only angry at myself that I didn't stand up for him more and tell people that there's absolutely nothing wrong with him.
Not all children are the same, some take longer to develop than others and even though he seemed to understand everything I said and asked for from him, he just didn't know (or want to) communicate with me or anyone else. It made me sad to think of him being lonely, not being about the say what he wanted and becoming frustrated with his lack of skill that he simply might give up trying whatsoever. I had no need to worry, he just needed time.
He surprised me this week, he counted the stars on the ceiling with me at bedtime, not to his usual ten but to twenty. I was even more shocked when he counted to fifty the next day with me counting along with him. He also began saying "merci coup", which I can only imagine meant "merci beaucoup" to him - I have no idea where he's learning the French from! Could a child who had difficulty learning to talk say all these things to me, I don't think so. I'm so sorry I doubted my boy.
I've been worrying so much - more stupid worries I'm sure - about this new baby, how Tyler Lee will adjust and even if I'll have enough love to go around - how bloody stupid is that of me? Tyler Lee is my absolute world, I've spent almost everyday of his life with him and we're very close, I worry about becoming a mother of two and not just having my little angel man anymore.
Whatever the future holds, he can rest assured that he will always be my baby, the one who made me a mother, the one who I shall never doubt again, the one who taught me how to mother and the one who never fails to surprise me.
As long as I'm living, my baby he'll be.
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