I haven't mentioned it on the blog before now so it's probably time I ought to and give those who have voted for me a huge thank you. I have been nominated in three categories in the Blog Awards Ireland - Best Lifestyle Blog, Best Personal Blog and Best Blog Post. I would like to thank those who voted for me to be nominated, I was actually shocked when I got the email to say I had been nominated so it really was quite a surprise! My blog has been judged by volunteer judges for two categories and hopefully I'll be shortlisted for the next round if they enjoyed my blog but for Best Blog Post it's down to public voting. The top ten voted blogs will then move through to the next round and the winner will be selected by a panel of judges. I want to let you all know why I am asking for your vote but firstly I'd like you to all read the blog post I'm nominated for...
I'll Always Remember You
I'll always remember you.
Even though you were part of my life for a very short time I will always appreciate the fact that you were mine.
You deserved a name, so I gave you one, a neutral one as sadly I'll never know if your spirit was male or female.
I'll always remember you when October comes by, especially the sixteenth as I was due to meet you that day but I'll never know if you're an early show or a keep me waiting kind of person. I'll also remember you on your brothers birthday, the day I realised you were leaving me for good.
I light candles for you to try and keep you near me, the flame representing you, burning for a short time and then being blown out, I wish you could have burned forever and let your light shine bright into my life but sadly it was not mean to be.
I'm glad that it's not people's bodies that go to Heaven but their souls as I imagine you as a tiny baby soul, safely cuddled up on a pure, fluffy cloud with the sun shining on you to keep you warm.
You were only part of my life for six very short weeks but the anticipation I had of meeting you was great and I did love you. I am wrong though, you will always be part of my life, not just those weeks of your presence on Earth.
Just because I never met you does not mean that I don't mourn and grieve for you.
I'm sorry I'm not there to mind you, it just wasn't meant to be but hopefully one day my soul will meet yours and we can be together, as we should have been.
I'll always remember you when a birds feather floats by me, when I see a robin in my garden, a butterfly flutters around me or a rainbow appears before me, that's how I'll know you're near.
Sleep tight little one until I come to cuddle you forever.
I love you.
I wrote this post at about six in the morning ten days after I miscarried my second child which also happens to be ten days after Tyler Lee's birthday. Yes, in a cruel twist of fate I realised, that on a day I was celebrated the birth of of my children I was losing another. When I wrote this post I was crying my eyes out and was in a very dark and lonely place in my life, I had felt let down by all around me and felt as though I had no one in the world but my son. This post is highly personal to me and it took a lot for me to share it with the world. I think it highlights the feelings which child loss brings upon a woman really well as it was written from the heart and this is exactly what I was thinking in that moment. I would be honoured if you would take two seconds to vote for me in the Blog Awards Ireland for Best Post for these words which mean so much to me. If you would like to vote please click here. Scroll down to Dolly Dowsie in the 'D' section and click on the little circle icon in front of the blog name and then scroll down to the end of the page and click vote. You can vote once a week. Thank you so much and if you do vote for me please do let me know in the comments below so I can thank you personally.